I think I am growing

Two months ago, heck, maybe even last month, it would have bothered me that my waxing "specialist" at Spa Bleu got knocked up by her on again off again boyfriend. It still blows my mind that God gives people who don't deserve children these little lives and they trash them by having an abortion or being selfish and choosing to raise them when adoption would be a blessing for a family who can't have a child on their own.  Sure, maybe there is the case where a woman grows up, learns a couple life lessons and becomes a fabulous mom and their kids end up well adjusted and successful - I do have several friends that can testify to this. However, my point is that until now, my heart spun, my throat closed and I felt instantly ill when I heard of these women who became pregnant and it wasn't in their "life plan". I don't know how I missed it last month, but Katie at Spa Bleu was visibly pregnant today.  Maybe God had some mercy on me last month so I didn't notice.  But I can honestly say that I felt no resentment or bitterness toward her.  I wasn't showering her with gifts and compliments, but I wasn't angry. Maybe women who don't have children and haven't been through this don't understand, but I don't want to feel that way. It's this involuntary response. It's like blinking or sneezing. Sometimes I don't even realize I am angry or sad until it's gone horribly awry. It sneaks up on me. But today was a new day. Congrats Katie at Spa Bleu. Your kid will have the most amazingly groomed body hair.