"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them and the point is to live everything. Live the questions now..." Ranier Maria Rilke
Busy season is coming up for Dan and normally it's no big thing. We have been through the worst of it and now that he is moving up (Supervisor now but hopefully a Manager this fall) busy season is more like busy year. He has an amazing way of shining at work so that everyone knows he is an amazing worker and dependable individual both professionally and personally. So much that he has a full, well, overflowing plate most of the time at work. I respect him so much for his energy. He seems to be one giant ball of kinetic energy. I know the man doesn't wake up every morning shouting I LOVE NUMBERS as he flies out of bed, but rather a I LOVE MY FAMILY CURRENT AND FUTURE (okay he doesn't really shout) and I know this job is a fulfilling means to an end. With my new work schedule and his busy season coming up, our time together is going to be scarce. I have needed him so much over the past few months that I am pretty sure I am sitting somewhere in between denial and fury. I am just getting used to everything as it is. How could it possibly change? How could he leave me alone? Doesn't he know what my brain does when it's given too much peace and quiet?
No, I'm not really upset. I'm just bracing myself. This happens every year. I have loved every moment we have had over the holidays and I will cling to that. Plus, there are plenty of shifts I can pick up at work to fill my time...I'll get right on that.
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