Oh how easy it is to be tempted by the devil. He sneaks up on you. You're on your merry way, blissfully ignorant and delightfully distracted and BAM! You start to seep back into the darkness, the sorrow, the WHAT IF's. Rachel my dear, the world doesn't stop spinning. Life is not about what happens to you, but rather how you react to it. Sometimes your little lifeboat will get shaken. Although it takes all your might to keep it floating, it's how you deal with the waves that makes you who you are.
I am working desperately on my "switch". I can go to that bad place so easily. I have to learn to turn it off. I don't know why it's so easy to go "there", but it does me no good. I need to flip it and continue on my way. I can't let the devil detour me from my path to peace and resolution. Sometimes I think I should record myself and play it back. These statements sound so brilliant now but I forget to take a page out of my own book when I'm in the thick of it. Although with my stubborn nature I would probably want to slap myself if I had to listen to myself all day...sorry Dan. ;)
This reiterates that I need to continue surrounding myself with positivity. Rid myself of the tempting people and places that can send me into a tailspin. Why enable my negative behavior? I'm a work in progress but I'm no fool. Alcoholics can't frequent weddings with open bars. Why set myself up?
Things I am thankful for:
Having a cat that keeps me company during the day when the rest of the grownups in the world have more important things to do than hang with me.
My hubs who stays up to say goodnight even when I come home late from work.
SPRING! I already have my plants started in my kitchen!
Books...who doesn't need a little escapism?
Coffee. Oh how I love thee, let me count the ways!
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