Anniversary

Today, one year ago, we found out we lost our baby Johnny. In one year, I have been my deepest darkest self; I have been crazed and desperate; I have made deals with God; I have also been the happiest my heart can hold. I can't wrap my brain around everything that has happened to us in the past 12 months. I only know that next year this time...I will be a different woman. I will be a mommy.